Hai you,
do you have a girlfriend ?
If you have, i'll step back. If you haven't, what do you think about me ?!
Can you imagine we are together ?!
I'm thingking 'bout you a lot, gimana kalo gue ngajak loe dating. I'm not afraid being refused. But, i have something that bothering me a lot. What if i'm not good enough for you ?!
I'm not the type who can be in relationship and still going out with other man. Gue nggak bisa se selow itu. If i'm be with you, i'll all in. I mean it. I'm not kind of girl who can flirting with the other when i'm in a relationship.
I love long term relationship. So i just have a few ex-boyfriend. But, every words they said tertanam di alam bawah sadar gue. I did't know how to be good girlfriend, so when they said i have to do something, i did it. When they said they don't like something, i did'nt. Stupid enough, didn't i ?! I just want sameone who loved me.
Ada satu kalimat yg gue inget banget sampe sekarang, bahkan jadi salah satu sumber ketakutan gue. When he said, kalo nggak bisa memberikan kebahagiaan, setidaknya jangan memberikan kesusahan! What the f*ck ?! Oh my, i just wanna cry when i remembered it. And then i think, am i that bad ?!
Kok gue malah jadi nyelow gini ya ?!wkwkwkw
I remember about you, but i remember what i afraid of. I want you, but i'm afraid i'm not good enough.
Gue selalu berpikir, bagaimana agar perasaan gue tersampaikan ?! But i have not enough strength to confess to you. You worth to try. But, ah.. i have to much reason not to confess to you.
If you read this, a girl who have a lot of pain from the past, really want to be with you.
If you read this, a girl who have a lot of pain from the past, really want to be with you.
Tasikmalaya,
9 Agustus 2018 10:32
